ATTENTION: If you have issues with same sex relationships this isn’t for you. I see nothing wrong with who someone loves. I have both family and friends alike who have same sex partners. It isn’t for me to judge anyway. Don’t flood my inbox with negativity and rudeness.

Picture from Motherland: Fort Salem TV Show.

At first you were only a job. An assignment I needed to complete. “Befriend her, gain her trust, and bring her to us.” I accepted the challenge without much of a second thought. I knew you were broken and vulnerable. I knew what you had lost. All I would have to do is find a way to break through your tough exterior.

What I didn’t realize is how quickly things would change. I, myself, have a shield protecting my heart. I’ve watched those closest to me be killed right in front of me. You asked me where I came from and about my past. I wanted to tell you then and there but I knew I couldn’t. You pressed me for answers and so I gave you the short of the story, being careful not to divulge too much.

I know I should have told you the entire story. How I feel victim to an organization who convinced me I would be a good fit for their work. For it is easy to prey on the lost and weak. You have to understand, I didn’t fully know what I was getting myself into. I didn’t want to be this villain that I’ve become but I have to accept my choice.  I hope you will be able to see my side of the story. I know this is not an excuse for the horrible and unthinkable things I have done.

I only wish I could’ve met you before I became Spree.

I need you to believe that I would never do anything to hurt you. That has always been true. No matter what happens. I love you, Raelle.